- ...reflexive1
- In mathematical logic--I learned
later--this phenomenon plays an important role and is called a
diagonalization.
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hypocrites2
- ``If someone like that is trying to get some
private information out of you, then don't tell it. They may insist,
but you persist. At last they will give up. And then you can say: `By
the way, it was so and so.' This will learn them.''
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- `I feel the air
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shoots4
- See also the review by barefeetzen on the web-page of
this book
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- ... eyes5
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learned from Piet Hut
that a book commenting on the phenomenological approach, which also takes
experience as a point of depart, is called
On having no head,,
Douglas E. Harding [1988], Arkana.
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often6
- Only in the 1990ies in scientific discussions the taboo
to mention consciousness was broken. In fact consciousness became a
hype. There appeared several journals devoted to the scientific study
of consciousness. Some claim that the problem could be solved, in fact
was already solved: ``Consciousness consists of our brain processes.''
Others claim that the explanatory gap can never be bridged. The
philosophy of mind became a highly technical subject in which
philosophers, cognitive psychologists, neurophysiologists and still
others take part. See for example Chalmers [1996]: The Conscious
Mind: In Search of a Fundamental
Theory, in which
distinction is made between the easy problem (how does the brain work
and give rise to our behavior) and the hard problem (how does the
brain give rise to our consciousness). Chalmers gives a plea for
extending the present model of physics: consciousness arises as soon
as there is a sufficient density of information. Others, notably Stapp
[1993] Mind Matter and Quantum Mechanics, claim that
consciousness can be explained within present day quantum physics, as
this theory is about our knowledge of nature anyhow.
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- ... PhD8
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and a windmill
for some
flavor.
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in logic
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work10
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surrounding dose of `politics'.
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orgasms11
- It was only later that I understood this
connection. A music friend who had the same opinion about Daphnis
said: ``It is porno, and, mind you, not the soft version of it.''
Because of the negative connotation of this word I prefer to call it
`erotic art'.
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- ... female12
- One will not find this in
books about music, but when I tell this to musicologists they
agree. One of them, Margaret Fabrizio, told this in class and was so
kind to mention my name, after which a female student asked: ``But how
does he know this?'' The feminine aspect of the depicted
orgasms in Ravel's Daphnis is the following. The music is highly
erotic to begin with (so is the story). Ths is in common with music of
Debussy. Then Ravel knows how to increase the sexual tension and to
relax it. In this way he creates many pre-orgasms. After these become
quite intense one may wonder ``Is this a real orgasm?''. The music
makes one think so. But when finally the real one comes one knows:
``This is it. Before was just warming up.''
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rhythms13
- This I learned later from Daan Admiraal, the
brilliant conductor of the Amsterdam Free University Orchestra when we
played the work.
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- Another interesting phenomenon was the
following. When not much later the
Dance de la Terre started I had already reentered
the ordinary state of consciousness. The timpani plays at this passage
sixteenths (against triplets in the base drum) and some bars later
triplets (against two eigths in the base drum). During the sixteenths
one could not see the individual timpani sticks moove, the movement
was there in a haze. But during the triplets the individual timpani
sticks became visible, like the three balls of a fast juggler. This
was an exciting visual addition to the music.
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orchestras, mogugyo (`wooden block') in Japanese.
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wall16
- Indeed in the Soto branch of Zen, the lineage of Kobun
Chino, one does sit facing the wall. In the Rinzai branch, with its
koans described by Daisetz Suzuki,
one sits facing the center. There are other differences. In Soto one
sits for periods of 40 minutes and in Rinzai of 25 minutes.
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-calculus every normal term was solvable.
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- ... well18
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days I could prove that solvability and having a normal form in the
-calculus were equivalent.
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- ... koan19
- But my time in LA
was over and I never returned to the Los Angeles Zen Center.
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- ... monk20
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quorum of PhDs needed in a Dutch PhD ceremony (promotie)
to examine the new candidate.
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of wood hung on ropes as a huge woodblock.
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goodbye23
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without saying goodbye, but then often there is no time to shake
hands with 50 or more people.
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